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Well, I am resting well now in the fact that I know more now. My Stake President called me today and told me that I will in fact have to go in for another interview with either my counselor, or another one more prepared in Missionary Interviews. It's still hard that it's not coming, but I am so glad that at least now I know! Haha, it's been really hard not knowing. At least now things will get moving and I will be able to get my call. Maybe this is happening to me now and I'm documenting it so that some day down the line, somebody else will be experiencing the same thing and want to know why or what is going on, and then they will read this and understand that this is all just part of the process.
I had the thought the other day, and maybe I've written it down already, but maybe this whole extra long progress of getting my call postponed and the extra interview is just what I need to go through in able to be assigned where He wants me to go. Where He needs me to go. I had to go through the tough experiences of depression to be able to have Him let me know that He really knows and cares about me individually. This is all just another piece to the complex puzzle.
I made mistakes. I fell down and He literally had to pull me back up. He knows, and I know what happened, and He knows and I know my heart--He knows it better! But He also knows how the system works, and that all things must be done in their proper order, line upon line, precept upon precept. I can't skip any steps. Too many people care about me. Too many people love me. They need to be sure that I will be alright out there, and that I will be safe. They need that affirmed just as much as I do. So it all part of the bigger picture. Maybe He needs me to go somewhere pretty hard, and they are the ones that need to know I can handle it.
I'm still hoping and praying that these next steps go smoothly, but I am still putting my trust in Him. He knows me better than I know myself, and it is all in His hands now.

Lots of Love,
Future Sister Holly Howell